Raastay...

Us ka chehra kabhi nazar na aaye
Paas us kay hain raat kay saaye

Ghar say nikla tha woh apni hi manzil ki taraf
Apni manzil par kuch aur raastay paaye

Mur kay dekha to mit gaye thay nishaan qadmon kay
Ye hawa zor par thi ab to kayi sadiyon say

Woh samjhta tha kay thum jaye ga us ka toofan
Ab bhala aur kisi raastay pay kyun jaaye

iffi Feb 28th, 05

It happens and It doesn't..

Somethings are ment to happen and no matter what I do I can't stop them from happening.
Somethings are not suppose to happen and no matter I do I cant make them happen.
Somethings are ment to hurt and no matter what I do I can't escape it.
Someone is bound to get hurt and no matter what I do I can't help it.

Some one is ment to go and no matter what I do I can't stop em.
Some one is ment to be part of me ...
Too bad... I was just beginning to enjoy this misery.

It happens and it doesn't but do I really care?
I wonder if I let it be. Would that just be fair?
Slowly now I'm growing old, inches made a mile.
First it was just bitter words. Now it's just a pile.

Why would it be wrong if i just stay away from light.
Darkness seems to cherish me. light is just too bright.
I get up and wear my mask and close to doors behind
Yes! for now it's dark inside but that doesn't mean I'm blind.

Faces that appear to me, fading in my thought
Crawling just away from me are demons that I fought
Time and Time and Time again they wanted to let me go.
Loneliness is just too cruel. No wonder I said No.

by iffi Feb 10th, 2005

Changed...

I saw an old friend online today.. He was a bit surprized to see me yet he was happy. We chatted for some time. talked about the old days and how things were use to be and after chatting for like half an hour he said, "I can't believe it man! You haven't changed a bit"... I wonder if he is right about that. Either I'm too low that I can't sink anymore. Or perfection can't be improved. What is it? I dont know.. What do I think it is? I dont think about it.. Why not!? Cuz I stopped giving a damn a long time ago.

From a Father to a Son...

You really think after all that pain I would just wanna talk to him??.. as far as I'm concerned.. he means nothing to me anymore.. he broke his relationship with me a very long time ago.

"ye to ghaneemat samjho keh mein tum say baat kar leta huun, warna tum is kaabil bhi nahi kay tum say baat ki jaye."

He said that to me.. a long time ago.. and I have this carved inside me so badly that even if my entire body burns down. and there is nothing left of me.. These words will still remain there....

[part of a conversation]

Meri Azaad Nigahon Nay...

Meri Azaad Nigahon Nay Ghulami Dekhi
Apnay Hathon Ki Lakeeron Ki Neelaami Dekhi

Mein Nay Dekha Kay Meri Rooh Bik Rahi Hai Kaheen
Us Kay Chehray Pay Tera Aks o Nishaani Dekhi

Mere Aghosh Mein Ek Dil Hi Reh Gaya Tha Magar
Us Mein Doobi Howi Ek Yaad Puraani Dekhi

In Hawaon Nay Mujhay Teri Khabar Di Lekin
In Say Lipti Howi Aahon Mein Duhaai Dekhi

Jaanay Kis Mor Par Jeenay Ki Duwa Maangi Thi
Mein Nay Kis Daur Mein Teri Yeh Khudaai Dekhi

iffi [2001]