another game..

It's been almost a month since I wrote anything and yet again I'm back.. I took some time off from blogging and every other internet activity to do some of the things that needed my attention. Whether or not if it was all done is another issue... I can't really go back and change some of the things that have happened during this break and it's not like there were any disasters of any kind... However, I'm done with them and I have some other things to look forward to.

As of the 5th, I have my studies begining all over again. A new place.. new people... new reasons... and the same goal.. to accomplish what I must.. I'm trying to make something of this life because I must.. I don't see myself trapped in the life I have for now.. not for long anyway.. simply because I don't consider being a slave to conditions and controllers a life...

I don't really know why but every single time I talk to people, for some reason, I get these messages and predictions that I'm destined to do something great. I don't really know if that means something good or bad... it can be good if it's meant to change something in this world for the better.. and it's bad in the sense that I have no control over this life... somehow I don't like the idea of no control over anything...

I don't know what is going to happen when I step into another game that shapes my path... but I know that I must have the energy to do better than everyone else.. and I will.. My competitive nature is starting to call me out again.. Yet again I have this strange urge to do better than every one else.. To work harder than everyone else.. and to accomplish what I must.. a better life and a better future.. What I have right now is not what it apears to be.. There are many who consider this a good life but I'm the one who's living it.. I'm the one who knows the reality of this existence..

I don't exactly know when I will write again and what will I write.. all I know is that I'm stepping into another game... Let's see what I do...