I was Concerned...

As I looked outside this morning, I saw the roads and the roof tops covered with the snow. Father Snow has done it again... But this time around it was different for me... For the first time I saw the snow outside the window and instead of feeling what I usually feel, which is somewhat excitement, I was concerned. It's not that I haven't seen this much snow before. It's quite the opposite. I've had the pleasure of working outdoors while it's -36 C and the wind-chill was making it feel like -48C. And as much as I would like to claim the glory here for being able to work 8 hours in the unbearable cold, I rather forget that I ever did participate in that event of my life. It was as cold as I have ever felt in my life but this year, this time around I'm somewhat concerned. And I couldn't help asking my self why I'm concerned when I have seen worse. I still don't have the answer to that question but I do know that the charm that I once had of seeing the snow falling for the first time is certainly not there anymore.

The first time I saw the snow flakes in Canada was 3 years ago. And I was excited like a little boy who's found out that the comic book heroes that he admires are real life people. :) It only takes a few more years till the senses kicks in and that little kid realized what he believed once isn't true anymore. The first time I saw the snow falling was when I was sitting in a car while Andrea was driving. I had a smile on my face and she was angry. I looked at her and I wondered why she would show anger on such a beautiful phenomenon of nature. But today as I'm writing this, I can understand how she must have felt. It's not that we get use to it here in Canada, infact, it's the complete opposite. People end up hating the snow because it reduces people's ability to live normally. I must have cleaned the car 5 times today to make sure that the driving part is easier on me but it wasn't. The roads where I saw people driving at 100 km/h while the speed limit is 80 was covered with cars that aren't moving faster than 40km/h and the sky that stays clear most of the year was so clouded today that it gave me the feeling as if this snow will never stop falling.

Another thing that I've noticed now is that I don't consider it the beginning of winter unless I see snow. I wonder how I would act and react when I'm in Pakistan when in winters I was use to wear just a shirt and maybe once in a while a sweater. It's a lot different than what it was use to be for me. But in a way I am happy that I know how this feels like. One more series of experiences that I will remember till the end of my days.

I don't want to miss a thing.

I know that there are lot's of reason why I shouldn't post these lyrics in my blog but I like this song so much that I had to :) Anyways... If you've heard this song then I'm sure you know how beautiful it is. Just to understand it's beauty in the silence of just words I'm writing them over here. Eventually I'll learn to play it on my guitar too but that depends on the free time I have.

So here it is with out further due..

I don't want to miss a thing.

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you’re far away dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

Don’t want to close my eyes
I don’t want to fall asleep
Cause I’d miss you baby
And I don’t want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I’d still miss you baby
And I don’t want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And I’m wondering what you’re dreaming
Wondering if it’s me you’re seeing
Then I kiss your eyes
And thank God we’re together
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever
Forever and ever

Don’t want to close my eyes
I don’t want to fall asleep
Cause I’d miss you baby
And I don’t want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I’d still miss you baby
And I don’t want to miss a thing

I don’t want to miss one smile
I don’t want to miss one kiss
I just want to be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just want to hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

Don’t want to close my eyes
I don’t want to fall asleep
Cause I’d miss you baby
And I don’t want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I’d still miss you baby
And I don’t want to miss a thing

Don’t want to close my eyes
I don’t want to fall asleep
I don’t want to miss a thing

by Aerosmith

My Newest Creation.

THE ERRATICS

"It is the incompetence of man kind that it respects a Chaos and it's after effects but it fails to apreciate Order when it's in effect..."

It's a scientific fact that Human kind is continously evolving into something better. But if that is true then why is that in order apreciate anything, we look back in the history and say, "Those were the people, those were the minds, those were the days. There cannot be anything or anyone like them in the future."

These are some of the thoughts that I have in my head and these are some of the things that keeps me ticking. I know that I'm not the only one who thinks like this. That's why I'm creating this group for the people who think in these dimensions. And if you are one of them then you should share your thoughts with the rest of us. Because we are the Erratics. We are the ones who defy the norms. There might not be a place for us in the "commercial" history books. But there is a certain need in this present and the future that is ours.

Here's the link:
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/erratics/

A Cigar and A Matchbox

Today I bought my self a cigar. Haven't smoked it yet but soon I will. It looked good in the window and it smells even better after I had it in my hand. I paid the guy 10 bucks for the thing and for some reason the guy at the shop was somewhat happy. I've been in sales quite a long time so I know when a man is happy for making a sale and this wasn't that happiness.

As he took the cigar out of the box I said to him, "They say that it's a good thing to light the cigar with a match insted of a lighter. It keeps the texture and taste of the cigar intact." Needless to say he agreed with me and that knode told me that he himself likes to smoke a cigar once in a while when he's in the mood. Or when there is an occasion.

I asked him if I can buy a match from him. He looked around for one and here and there his eyes kept coming back to the cigar. There was a look on his face as if he's remembering some of the times from his past when at night he had a cigar in his hands as he relaxes on his favorite seat, enjoying the evening.

He found the match box and then placed it on the glass top of his counter which were showing some remaining lottery tickets. I asked him what the price was so that I can pay him and be on my way. He looked into my eyes and gave me a smile. "Take it, don't worry about it" he said as he closed the cash register. "Thanks" I said. "You have your self a great evening." he said as he wiped off some of the dust that was on top of counter. "Thanks. You too... Bye" I replied to him and started to walk toward the door.

But the best part about this one is that it reminds me of my country. I don't exactly know what it is that I'm remembering from it

took some time off... or did i?

A few weeks ago I applied for a credit card. Neither to say that this was the first time I even considered having one since I don't believe in owing any one any money. Funny thing for me is that even thou my record is pretty good when it comes to paying my bills I found my self wondering why they would ask me to deposit money. After doing a bit of research I found out that it doesn't matter how well you are in paying your bills, if you don't have a credit card the first time around, you'll have to put a deposit down to get started. Yes that's right. Get started! Now why would they say that? Pretty simple. I never had a credit card before so according to the Credit Union, I don't have a credit history. Which results in taking it from the start. No matter how many bills I've paid in my life, they simply don't give a crap. So now I am here and wondering if it's really worth putting down a deposit and locking down 200 dollars for the rest of time. :) Now that doesn't sound right... does it? Honestly NO! it doesn't but guess what. 200 dollars is worth putting down considering the amounts of benefits that you can have when you have a credit card. It helps in a lot of ways like buying a car, buying a house, buying something other than that and stuff... I'm not gonna go into all that because if you really want to know about all of that stuff you should just 'google' it. That would help you out faster and in more details than I can. :)

Anyways...

I'm working vigorously now a days. And it my sound like something most people in North America wouldn't like to believe but I haven't had a break from work since 4 weeks. Seriously... No breaks. No days off. after working for 10 hours every single day I'm tired... I really need a break but since this is based on a contract. I'm stuck with this schedule. I'm hoping that will end soon. But the question that comes with that is... if it ends will that throw me back on to the waiting list again? where I wait for my contract to be picked up again? Not sure.. I don't feel like taking that other job that really doesn't make any sense.

Whatever...

I'm working my ass for for now.. and it's paying alright too.. hehehe

There are some other things that are going on in my life besides work so don't think thats the only thing but that I'll put up here late on.