Happy Day for a Dead Man...

Eat the cake..
Shut your mouth
Watch them curse the ground they walk on

Feel your heart
Punch it hard
Still you feel that beat is gone

26 years
Countless wars
Thou i should, I can't move on

I lived I died
No one ever cried
Thou I'm here, I'm already gone..

Holding on...

This Picture feels like I'm holding on to the sun from going down. Freezing it in time. Not letting it go cuz if I let it go.. the day will end. And so these meaningful moments that finally made me realise that I'm still alive, will face an ending and become yet another part of my memory. Where too much has already been lost...

Reflection..

I lost the words that made a sketch of things, the way I saw them first.
I lost the words to tell my self the meaning of this endless thirst.
Then I saw the mirror of lies
Where I stood and watched my soul disappear...

iffi (jan 20th, 2005)

Ankhain..

woh pathar say chehray pay bheegi si aankhain
musawar say apnay woh aankhain
woh rahon mein chalta howa ik musafir
woh apnay khayalon mien khoi si aankhain.
woh dehleez par baith kar us ka rona
woh khwabon khayalon mein khoi si aankhiendi
khaati hain kya kya yeh mausum yeh rustay
inhien dekhti jaagi soi si aankhien


iffi (2001)

Just A Death

Laying at the bottom
Of an ocean cold and deep
A shimmer glides and shines then fades
Light from ocean's top
Close it gets and warm it feels
Precious so I want more
Close it gets and disapears
Another ritual lie
Cold I am again and more
And yet again I'm lost
Paradise that feels just right
I wonder what it costs
Lingering in this darkness
Is that some thing I called my soul
Thou it's just a memory
it's still plays a role
From time to time I wish I had
A broken string of Hope
From the top they see my face
But they dont see the slope
Slowly I just wisper
the words and pain I feel
I guess I have just lost my will
To find the cure to heal
Man Against these raging waves
life is not that sweet
every day we knit our lies
to make our selves defeat
Innocence has many shades
mostly light and bright
I wonder where I lost my touch
In the end I stretch my hands
As I lose my breath
And thou I've lost a precious gift
This is just a death.


iffi, Jan 17th, 2005

My Guitar Lies Bleeding In My Arms...

Misery likes company, I like the way that sounds
I've been trying to find the meaning, so I can write it down
Staring out the window, it's such a long way down
I'd like to jump, but I'm afraid to hit the ground

I can't write a love song the way I feel today
I can't sing no song of hope, I got nothing to say
Life is feeling kind of strange, since you went away
I sing this song to you wherever you are
As my guitar lies bleeding in my arms

I'm tired of watching TV, it makes me ant to scream
Outside the world is burning, man it's so hard to belive
Each day you know you're dying from the cradle to the grave
I get so numb sometimes, that I can't feel the pain

I can't write a love song the way I feel today
I can't sing no song of hope I've got nothing to say
Life is feeling kind of strange, it's strange enough these days
I send this song to you, whoever you are
As my guitar lies bleeding in my arms

Staring at the paper, I don't know what to write
I'll have my last cigarette-well, turn out the lights
Maybe tomorrow I'll fell a different way
But here im my delusion , I don't know what to say

I can't write a love song the way I feel today
I can't sing no song of hope I've got nothing to save
And I can't fight the feelings buried in my brains
I send this song to you, whoever you are
As my guitar lies bleeding

(Bonjovi. Album: These Days)

These Days...

I was walking around, just a face in the crowd
Trying to keep myself out of the rain
Saw a vagabond king wear a styrofoam crown
Wondered if I might end up the same
There’s a man out on the corner
Singing old songs about change
Everybody got their cross to bare, these days

She came looking for some shelter with a suitcase full of dreams
To a motel room on the boulevard
Guess she’s trying to be james dean
She’s seen all the disciples and all the wanna be’s
No one wants to be themselves these days
Still there’s nothing to hold on to but these days

These days - the stars seem out of reach
These days - there ain’t a ladder on these streets
These days - are fast, love don’t last in this graceless age
There ain’t nobody left but us these days

Jimmy shoes busted both his legs, trying to learn to fly
From a second story window, he just jumped and closed his eyes
His momma said he was crazy - he said momma I’ve got to try
Don’t you know that all my heroes died
And I guess I’d rather die than fade away

These days - the stars seem out of reach
But these days - there ain’t a ladder on these streets
These days are fast, love don’t lasts-in this graceless age
Even innocence has caught the morning train
And there ain’t nobody left but us these days

I know rome’s still burning
Though the times have changed
This world keep turning round and round and round and round
These days

These days - the stars seem out of reach
But these days - there ain’t a ladder on these streets
These days are fast, love don’t lasts-in this graceless age
Even innocence has caught the morning train
And there ain’t nobody left but us these days

These days - the stars seem out of reach
These days - there ain’t a ladder on these streets
These days - are fast, nothing lasts
There ain’t no time to waste
There ain’t nobody left to take the blame
There ain’t nobody left but us these days

From the Album These Days by Bon Jovi

Aur Akela Mein...

Chaar Diwaari, Tuuti Chaat Aur Akela Mein
Raat Ka Waqfa, Ek Muddat Aur Akela Mein

Ankhon Mein Kuch Beetay Pal Aur Ek Mera Woh Daur
Jaagtay Rehnay Ki Fursat Aur Akela Mein

Dhooein Mein Bhi Saaf Dikhay Saamnay Ki Dewaar
Us Pay Ghari Jo Hai Saakat Aur Akela Mein

Kuch To Adhoora Pan Mera Aur Kuch Bikhra Saaman
In Say ulajhnay ki wehshat, Aur Aleka Mein

Seher Ki Dastak Phir Say Howi Aur Guzar Gayi Ek Raat
Raatien Ginnay Ki Aadat Aur Akela Mein.

Iffi (Dec 21, 2001)

Thoughts on Paper II

Off the notes as my fingers bleed,
I lay down and I wonder.
Was it worth a try, was it worth a cry,
Why not just surrender.

My heart still beats so I know it's there,
And it doesn't cry, no more.
A little peace I felt in a burning flair,
So I curse that fire, no more.
To leave aside my hall of pain,
I wish to fly no more.
I guess I was on the other side
When I wondered why no more

It's not the same as I hold my thoughts
The wounds of guilt wont heal.
Empty lies of broken words,
I wrote down what I feel.

I chose to be in the darkest place,
So the light will fail no more.
The words would hurt if the walls could hear,
So I tell my tale no more.
I've heard he walked on the ocean's waves,
I but I hear them hail no more.
I guess he walks on the other side
Where the boats just sail no more.

(Iffi, Jan 9, 2005)

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Paper and Thoughts

Off all the notes, As my fingers bleed..
I lay down on my bed and wonder
Was it all worth a try? Was it all worth a cry?
Thou it is whats ment to be, it's just an old lie.
Peace I feel but calm I am, no more
Heart still beats so I know its' there, no more.

Not the same, holding thoughts as i feel
Not the same when bleeding fingers heel?
Empty lines of broken words
A failed effort of expression, no more.
fresh they were like thoughts I had, no more.

I close my eyes and hear it still
the strums and riffs of uncharted chords.
Ordinary Yet insane,
Part me and Part just pain but no more.
Blurred Vision and fading thoughts no more

As I fade I hold those notes.
As I fade I count those votes.
As I fade I wondered no more.
It's just a paper and some thoughts, no more.

by iffi (Jan 3, 2005)

Blood I cry..

An Angel's Wing Extend to Fly, Soddenned in Blood I cry

Bullet Proof

Tell me one more time again just like I didn't hear you
Like I don't know what's going through your mind, I do
I play the same game too
I know it's hard to stop
Even when you want to

Now the moon lights up your face and I can see you're crying
You never liked me to see you cry, it's true
I've done some crying too
You know, the hardest part about it
Is trying to hide it from you

It would be great to be so strong
I never needed anybody's help to get along
But we're so scared of the silence and the tricks that we use
O, we're careful and we're cunning, but we're easily bruised
I don't want to lie about it, I'm not bulletproof

Well I finally found the way to hide from all your glances
Til the waiting game we play is through
I can, but what's the use
When all I really want to do is hide out with you?

It would be great to be so strong
You never needed anybody's help to get along
We're so scared of the silence and the language that we use
Yeah we're careful and we're cunning, but we're easily bruised
I don't wanna kid about it, I'm not bulletproof

Tell me one more time again I guess I didn't hear you
And I don't know all the secrets that you keep inside
I tried the same thing too
But they all come pouring out of me when I'm talking to you

It would be great to be so strong
You never needed anybody else's help to carry on
But I'm not waking up each morning with forgiveness I can use
No I'm careless and I'm cruel, but I'm still easily bruised
But I'm so tired of lying about it, I'm not bulletproof
No, and I'm not going to lie about it, I'm not bulletproof


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